Home ownership

I love owning my own home.  I love that I can paint my house whatever color I feel like (I hate white walls) I can take out or add things; I completely gutted my kitchen this summer and built a new one that I am in love with.  I have a huge yard for my girls to play in, there are no downstairs neighbors that will be annoyed by the girls running and jumping around the house.  It is wonderful.  However there is the maintenance that a home requires (no more landscapers to mow the grass and trim the trees) and then when a problem pops up it can cost big bucks.  I am fairly handy around the house, I did after all remodel my entire kitchen by myself, but when it comes to things like electricity well....I'm at a total loss.  So last night when I went into my bathroom and flipped on the light and nothing happened, I was a tad worried but figured it was waaay too late to worry about it I'd get to it in the morning.  So this morning, still no light, I popped the little test switch on the outlet,  no luck.  I checked the outlets they are still working, as is the fan...hmmmmm.  What are the odds all 4 light bulbs would burn out at the same time?  Slim to none but still I get a new bulb just to see, no dice.  I head out to the fuse box flip the switch, even try the master switch.  To no avail.  And there ends my experience in electric work. Maybe I only like owning my own home....

2011 A New Beginning

Here marks a new chapter in my life.  At 27 years old, being a single mother of two amazing little girls I will be, for the first time in my life, living alone!  I went from living with  my mother to living with my husband, then after we split, having roommates, to my (now ex) fiance to back with my mother.  Now my mother has bought her own house and my home is FINALLY all mine!  This is an exciting, scary, overwhelming, stressful, joyful and crazy time in my life.  I am a full time student, and have been for the past year.  However now I will have to find a job as well, that is the most stressful part for me.  Work, school, homework and 2 little girls is a lot to handle.  There are many single mothers who do this everyday, and I have always looked at them with such awe.  You know those moms who work their butts off at low paying jobs to provide for their kids, and somehow scrape together that little bit of extra cash for little treats here and there, or a special outing, and manage to never miss a parent teacher conference, or dance recital, or the big game in which their child is the star.  I have always seen those mothers as Wonder Woman!  I greatly fear that I will not be able to measure up to those women with their super mom powers. 

I am currently attending school to obtain my degrees in computer programming and web design.  My goal is of course to be able to do these things from home so I don't have to spend long hours away from my babies.  I know this will take tons of hard work and schooling but I am dedicated to making this happen.  I honestly don't have the first clue how to even begin to market myself.  Or how much to charge or anything.  I guess it's time to do some serious research....

This is NOT right!!

Race should NOT in any way determine a persons ability to be a good parent. It is completely 100% wrong that my daughter can be taken from me simply because I am white and give full custody to her father. Tribal laws are wrong. In fact I teach my daughter more about her tribe and heritage than her father does. He only claims his heritage when it is to his benefit, otherwise he will go on and on and on about his Irish heritage. Thankfully for the tribe to get involved in our custody he would have to move to the rez and according to our divorce papers he can't leave the Phoenix metro area so I think I am safe. If only I had known that when we got divorced and got our original custody agreement. I wouldn't have let him bully me into giving up so much time with her in fear of losing her completely.