Struggles

These past few days I have been hit with one of the hardest things (at least for me) to deal with as a single parent.  Having a sick kid and being sick yourself.  My darling little Lil has the flu, so for the past three nights she has been up coughing, sneezing, whimpering, crying, tossing and turning, kicking covers off and screaming "NO NO NO MINE MINE MINE!!" in her sleep.  Suffice to say I have had a total of 4 hours of broken sleep in 3 days.  Which wouldn't be too bad if I too weren't sick.  So I am stuck in this zombie-like stupor, wandering around the house bleary-eyed in my jammies trying do get my girl to eat something, anything!  Trying not to fall asleep while I am pouring her yet another glass of juice she is demanding but will not drink.  Then rocking her in my lap while trying to get homework done.  Feeling as if this fuzzy dream state of sickness and lack of sleep will never end...

2011 A New Beginning

Here marks a new chapter in my life.  At 27 years old, being a single mother of two amazing little girls I will be, for the first time in my life, living alone!  I went from living with  my mother to living with my husband, then after we split, having roommates, to my (now ex) fiance to back with my mother.  Now my mother has bought her own house and my home is FINALLY all mine!  This is an exciting, scary, overwhelming, stressful, joyful and crazy time in my life.  I am a full time student, and have been for the past year.  However now I will have to find a job as well, that is the most stressful part for me.  Work, school, homework and 2 little girls is a lot to handle.  There are many single mothers who do this everyday, and I have always looked at them with such awe.  You know those moms who work their butts off at low paying jobs to provide for their kids, and somehow scrape together that little bit of extra cash for little treats here and there, or a special outing, and manage to never miss a parent teacher conference, or dance recital, or the big game in which their child is the star.  I have always seen those mothers as Wonder Woman!  I greatly fear that I will not be able to measure up to those women with their super mom powers. 

I am currently attending school to obtain my degrees in computer programming and web design.  My goal is of course to be able to do these things from home so I don't have to spend long hours away from my babies.  I know this will take tons of hard work and schooling but I am dedicated to making this happen.  I honestly don't have the first clue how to even begin to market myself.  Or how much to charge or anything.  I guess it's time to do some serious research....