Finding myself

When I first found out I was pregnant with my first daughter I was 19, and had been married only 6 months.  From that moment onward I knew my life would be dedicated to my new little family, unfortunately my now ex-husband didn't feel the same way, thus the reason I am now divorced,.  So since then it has been dedicated solely to my children.   Which made me a terrific wife and mother.  But in all of this I forgot about myself and got completely lost.  So here I am at 27 single with two little girls who look up to me as their role model and I don't have the slightest clue who I am!  It's kind of scary to look at yourself and have no sense of who you are other than "mama".  So I am slowly trying to put the pieces of this puzzle know as "Me" together.  Looking at things I like, movies, music, books, interests.  I have an ok start, but I don't see how all of these pieces of me can be put together into a whole person.  So many pieces look like they are from different puzzles...so I wonder, can they all fit?

2011 A New Beginning

Here marks a new chapter in my life.  At 27 years old, being a single mother of two amazing little girls I will be, for the first time in my life, living alone!  I went from living with  my mother to living with my husband, then after we split, having roommates, to my (now ex) fiance to back with my mother.  Now my mother has bought her own house and my home is FINALLY all mine!  This is an exciting, scary, overwhelming, stressful, joyful and crazy time in my life.  I am a full time student, and have been for the past year.  However now I will have to find a job as well, that is the most stressful part for me.  Work, school, homework and 2 little girls is a lot to handle.  There are many single mothers who do this everyday, and I have always looked at them with such awe.  You know those moms who work their butts off at low paying jobs to provide for their kids, and somehow scrape together that little bit of extra cash for little treats here and there, or a special outing, and manage to never miss a parent teacher conference, or dance recital, or the big game in which their child is the star.  I have always seen those mothers as Wonder Woman!  I greatly fear that I will not be able to measure up to those women with their super mom powers. 

I am currently attending school to obtain my degrees in computer programming and web design.  My goal is of course to be able to do these things from home so I don't have to spend long hours away from my babies.  I know this will take tons of hard work and schooling but I am dedicated to making this happen.  I honestly don't have the first clue how to even begin to market myself.  Or how much to charge or anything.  I guess it's time to do some serious research....